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Name: Danie
Country: Philippines
Metro: Manila
Birthday: 10/3/1989
Gender: Female


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Member Since: 12/15/2004

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Monday, January 03, 2005

Hey, I love you... if you ever need anything, well, I'll always be here for you. Forever, remember? That's what I said and that's what I'll give. It's what I wanna give.

au revoir! <3 ♥ xoxo


Saturday, January 01, 2005

OK. call me a cry baby. go right ahead.

i went online and alex messaged me... and i told her i missed him already... and then he replied to my text message... and that's when i really started crying.

i know, i know. everything will be fine. we'll be OK... i just can't help it. i feel really bad. i wish i had wings... haha. so i could fly over to him whenever i want.

damnit... don't leave...


Friday, December 31, 2004

FYI: The next part is NOT about/from my boyfriend. It's about some dude I used to know. Oh and all names were changed [except for mine]. I was going through a folder in my drawer and I noticed a semi-crumpled piece of paper. I wish I'd never opened it. Ever. Oh... and it was given to me a long time ago... so it's not at the least bit recent.

Danie,
Hey! How's life... mine's not great... I'm really desperate because all I can think about is you and you alone. I haven't been able to sleep properly all day and night because I have nightmares that you ran away from home, got married and had a baby and you would never talk to me again. I'm really desperate without you I'm failing school because I can't stop thinking about you... I really need you I never realized how much you mean to me. Everyday and night I can't stop thinking about you, I always remember your sweet voice... If people say stuff about you I really don't care because you're the love of my life. I hope that by reading this letter you will forgive me and be mine forever. You will always be and will always remain MY GIRL... I thought I used to like some other girl but I realized that it was and it is you my aching heart wanted... I think I am terribly in love with you!!! I'm sorry it took so long for me to realize how much you mean to me, I really did everything I could to get you back. anyways... Danie I'm really desperate I'm so sorry I thought you were lying to me but I realized that it wasn't true and that you are so wonderful to talk to and umm.... Can you be my girlfriend...? I know I just asked for your forgiveness but I really want you to be my girl and I want things to go back to the same way as before. I wish I could call you but I'm grounded... I really want a part of your life and experience wonderful things with you... I'm really sorry PLEASE FORGIVE ME!!! Baby, give your letters to Chris or Kristen so they can give it to me and please reply real soon cause I'm desperate without you... I love you with all my heart... Since you're beautiful this necklace is for you. I aslo searched and bought so much cds just to find the right one for you so I recorded this and even though you think it's baduy I hope that you would somehow think of the times how I worked so hard for you and that's how much I love you...

WITH UNDYING LOVE, YOUR PRINCE CHARMING _____

>>well, bottom line:
-that dude wasn't real [he was made up, yes]

-I was stupid for believing
-my "friends" [one was my "best friend"] created him

>>lessons learned:

-people that hate you will do anything and everything to hurt you
-don't believe everything your "friends" say

Ha... I'm crying now. Haha. Pissed off... that's all... it'll pass... but I have to forgive myself for it; I have to forgive myself for believing. It's not my fault I did... I just trusted the wrong person, that's all. I was vulnerable, I suppose. It still affects me... especially because now I have to trust people. But I do! I do trust people now. I just get kinda scared sometimes. It is scary, after all... how cruel some people could get...

I haven't talked [as in, really talked] about this in a long time. I haven't read the letter in a long time, either. Months, maybe even more. Hey, I really thought he was real. He had a lil sis [I got to talk to her on the phone], he had a cellphone [we used to text a lot], he had a name and a school and a house and a village and everything. I was stupid. There WAS a guy. It's just that it wasn't his name... or his school. Whoa, right?

Anyway, I'd better end this now before I get even more frustrated... I don't wanna feel bad about this right now... or ever again, actually. So tonight, this ends. I will throw the letter away and I'll forgive myself. Besides, I don't have anything to worry about now. I have my guy. I love him, he loves me and we'll always be there for each other.

OK? OK. Done.

au revoir! <3 ♥ xoxo


Thursday, December 30, 2004

Every time I close my eyes
I thank the lord that I've got you
And you've got me too
And every time I think of it
I pinch myself cuz I don't believe it's true
That someone like you loves me too

>>D-A-M-N. Sweet. Freaking sweet.

I told you... some people are just so amazing... it's unbelievable. <3

au revoir! <3 ♥ xoxo


Monday, December 27, 2004

you know... i have the best boyfriend in the world. he's perfect. he's smart, nice, funny, thoughtful, honest, humble, kind, open-minded, forgiving, insightful/deep, generous, creative, sincere, compassionate, etc, etc, etc. he surfs, skates, does BMX, plays soccer, dances, plays almost every instrument on the face of this planet, sings, etc, etc, etc.

all he really wants to do is to help people. yes, i see that now. he really inspires me to be a better person. i wanna be more like him... i wanna have big dreams and a big heart. yes, he has the biggest heart in the whole world. that guy... he'd touch your life if you only let him.

sure, he's got his own set of problems, but the thing about him is he's strong. he doesn't give up... he just keeps going... he knows better than to just stop trying and to just give everything up. he's been through so much, and yet behind all that, there's still a hint of genuine happiness that radiates through the heaviest clouds and darkest corners.

oh and he's a hero. to his bro, to his friends, to strangers, to me... he'd help you through anything... he gives the best advice... wise words. he'd cheer you up in a second. he knows how to talk sense into people... you just have to be open-minded about it.

that guy... he makes life seem so simple... but why shouldn't he? it's true. it just depends on how you wanna look at the situation you're in. it's all about perspectives. if you keep thinking life's gonna suck, then it really will. if you think it's not so bad then you'll see that life is actually pretty cool.

i'm damn lucky to have him... i love him so much... i wish i could prove it. i just really, really wanna be good for him.

au revoir! <3 ♥ xoxo



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